Broke in College.. Cruelty at its finest

Mostly everybody I know is a broke ass college student.
Not much money, eating Ramen Noodles, and buying used or rented books to save a little cash. So tell me why these party promoters throwing parties and shit like people got money on trees to shell out money for their little parties every week?
Our homecoming is this week, and that means party, party, party every day this week! I just don't have the mulah for that shit.. I just shelled out 35 for a concert @ my school that gotdamn canceled and the fuckers didn't refund our money! That was on some bullshit
Then TSU's homecoming is in 2 or 3 weeks, and I most definitely have to attend that. Plies, Yo Gotti, Young Dro and Yung Joc will be there and Nashville will be on LOCK DOWN..
all these goddamn money. I got a refund and I had money.. but with the spending money on myy new laptop, shopping, books and paying my rent I'm down to 400!! && i won't be getting the next refund til Jan.. so what is a girl to do?! I HaVe to BUDGET!! ahh, but how when there's so much shit to do. I personally think its unfair lol
I'll figure it out.

Acceptance Is Soooo Great!

Today, I've had a revelation

instead of me stressing about being the only single I know, and not being in love and not having a boyfriend and potentially being single for V-day..

today I said "I'm single. Accept it."

and I've come to terms with it. I've come to term with I might not find a dude who is patient about me being a virgin,
I've come to terms with not every guy I meet might not like me as much as I like him,
I've come to terms with the fact I might be single another month, 3 months, or even year...
and that is OK!!

I know you all will think "Damn she so young, why she worried about a boyfriend?" Well..when everybody one you know speaks of love so openly and freely and after a while, the same friends you use to hit every party with opts out instead to snuggle-wugggle with their booski it makes you

WANT YOUR OWN...

but I've come to terms with my single-ness.
My male friend told me to don't look and it will come to you and I said "So that means I have to give up on any possiblity that comes my way" and he told me some that gives me comfort... he said
"Just have faith he will come when he does and you are ready; not worrying is having faith."

I got faith, so i'm not worried about it anymore ♥

Gucci Mane the Burrprint

Okay, so im loooving the Burrrrprint Gucci mane and DJ Drama the movie part 3

mixtape. Again, Gucci came out with another hard mixtape.. im always gonna be a Gucci fan

but one thing that made me laugh was Gucci speaking. In one of his skits, he says, "Jayz is the best rapper alive," That is a LIE

and im like....uh oh is Gucci tryna start some he know he might not can finish?

Iono but..

BURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR lol. download the mixtape.

Men & The Good Ol' Disappearing Act..

Ah, i have no luck with men ..

u think u connect with a dude and it might go somewhere

then,,, we've all been there

he goes on a disappearing act

I was talking to a guy and he was, ehhhhhhhh he alright looking and he seemed cool and we had a good conversation it constantly flowed for about 4 hours

he had strikes thooough

1)overly "cocky" and he wasn't all that cute...i mean, he kept saying "he's different," blah blah blah he dont think like the average dude like....i hate when guys sayy that instead of telling me that let me see it for myself u knww?

2) he says himself he's "superficial" and he wants a girl who is "really pretty". I think that is fine, but when you say that to a girl, in my opinion, u give her reasons to make her insecure. One of the things he t0old me he wanted in a girl that she had long hair. NOW when i met him, I had my weave in.. but when we chilled, I took it out and rockin my collarbone length hair.. && for soome reason I just felt he looked at me different

So im thinking things are gonna be ok, we'll hang out some more possibly get to know dude. Im not thinking much of it. Then, he doesnt text me. Ok, cool.. then another day goes by w/o texting. I text him and his answers are so dry & bland. A bunch of "oks," && "yeas" so, the final question I ask him is "SO have u been busy" and he answers "Yeah," and thats it. ..
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now the reason for me asking this question is to have him explain why he hasnt hit me up.. and maybe, possibly we can hang. but none of that sort. he just said yeah.. bland, dry, to the point he doesnt rap. So, Im like "aight" and I delete his number. Its been 4 days no nothing from him...thus the "Disappearing Act"

I hate when guys do this "Disappearing Act" Everything is cool (so u think) then they decide (in their mind) they do not want you, yall didnt connect whatever and u never hear from him again. I just think its a cowardly men .. and for the guy to claim he was "such a man and mature" iJust think it was a bitch, and little boy move.. if u didnt want to rap, at least make an excuse as why we couldnt be together lie and say you're tooo busy to hang or somethin... whatever... ON TO THE NEXT!!! LOL

only LAMES go up to guys right..

Is it acceptable for girls to go up to guys now?

I ask this because....iam in a bit of a dilemma. In my history 2020 class, there is a guy. He's REALLY cute and his name is, I shall call him, J. J is cute as hell, and I peeped that out first day of class. He was kind of eyeing me too I felt it, but he didn't approach me. Cool. Whatever

So, just last week I got a little bit cute I think and went to class. after class, i was walking towards the library when he appears next to me. Im getting excited because im thinking 'perfect opportunity' and that he will start a conversation say hey or somethin.
UM, it never happened. We walked a good 10 minutes besides each other, and he didnt say a word to me. He put on his earphones and walked.

I felt crushed.

So, my friends are telling me maybe I should start a conversation with him and get him to know me. Maybe start saying "Hello," or "HI," and that will let him know that I am interested.
But my thing is....if he is interested, or halfway interested or thinks im cute....won't he approach me? Men are SIMPLE, right. If they are interested they will come up to you and approach you. If they are NOT interested, they WONT come up to you. Fairly simple concept, so why am I analyzing it right?

My friend told me just because he thinks Im pretty doesnt mean he wanna talk to me. He has to get to know me a bit before he can make that call to become interested, so starting a conversation is key. But Im juss saying.....WHY I GOTTA MAKE THAT FIRST MOVE?

Im LOSING my best friend to her BOYFRIEND

Me and my bestie have been friends since the 7th grade. We both haven't been in any serious relationships, and we were thick as thieves and stuck like glue our 1st and 2nd semester of college.

Then she got a boyfriend.

And now, it's so very very very different and no matter what she tells me, THAT SHIT IS DIFFERENT.

You see, I am still single, and with NO prospects in mind I like to go out.
but she, on the other hand does not like going out..she'd rather stay in her boyfriend

And thats fine and dandy....but she never wants to go out anymore. I'd ask her to go somewhere, and its like PULLING teeth to get her to go. I don't want to have to beg her to go anywhere with me. She is my bestie, she should go willing.. We live in an apt together and time spent is spent in each other rooms for whatever little time she isnt with her bf, and thats it.

I asked her recently about a party and she indicated she didn't want to go, though last week she was up for it. Im like WTF? Last year, any party there was we could get to she was geeked to go to. It just makes me frustrating.

I know she is happy in love, and wants to spend ALL her time with him but when did spending time with him sacrifice her wanting to spend time with me??

Im happy for my best friend, it is just that she is extremely frustrating me to the depths. Maybe I should just find another single friend and get it like that and leave her iwith her happy relationship. I dont know what anymore.
I just miss my old best friend. Before the boyfriend. But if shes happy..

MIA but iam back..

damn I haven't blogged for over a month---

i seriously apologize. I went back to college and moved into my apt, and got adjusted to the college life again after being home for nearly 4 months.

but im back like i never left, LEFT LIKE I NEVER SLEPT

haha that's some GUCCI GUCCi for ya...