RIP Michael Jackson

1958-2009.

u will forever be missed

He aint TRICKIN, but he GOT IT.....

note I love PLIES in this picture lol

Ok. so, I talk to this guy name Q. Q is really sweet, nice and respectful. He's okay looking and he's very gentlemanly. But...I don't really like him. We've been out a few times and I don't feel anything more than friendship from him...but I keep thinking that I should keep him away.

One reason?

He keeps telling me that he will pay for things!! he said he'll be there when I need him, and uHH....chick needs her hair done ASAP !!!! sERIOUSLy, I don't wanna use dude but damn if he putting it out there like that I really ain't trying to pass that up!! I'll still talk to him, but I'm really thinkin' bout letting him gone let him get me stuff. He really seems like he doesn't have a problem w/me. I'm not gonna ask him for anything and I haven't asked him he just keeps offering. I'm working two jobs&& he knows that and he offers...I think its so sweet of him, but would I be using him if I took what he offered????

Is it wrong?

Im Sad I lost followers..

Aw im so sensitive..

 i lost 2 followers over the past 2 days!!

 lol. mane what I do?!?! lol im just kidding but i am kind of disappointed..

 thank u to all my followers!!! all 16 of u ya'll are kind to follow my hot mess of a blog...

 

I HATE WORKING.

and its only going to get worse when I start my 2nd job...

Im gonna be working over 15 hours A DAAY

ugggggghhhhhhhh im too young for this!!

So im A Hoe?

I was watching my FAVORITE reality show "College Hill" and it was the episode where Brandon showed his two-facedness and bitchy ways when he ratted to Milan about the roommates talking about her(WHEN HE WAS THE ONE THAT WAS TALKING ABOUT HER), and where he basically insulted Kay and called her all kinds of derogratory names. Now, the question I want to pose is Why do men like to call women hoes/bitches and the etc. and they know its not true?

It seems like when men feel rejected by a woman the first instinct they get is to demean the woman and try to objectify her and call her the one thing that he knows women hate and fear the most being labeled: a hoe. And then they spread rumors about the woman and cause her reputation to be slandered.

Now, I realize that some women CAN/ARE hoes, and put themselves in positions to be recognized as such but what about women who aren't hoes but since the man feels like he has to lie or feels rejected by her, he feels like he has to slander her name to make himself feel better because as we know, people tend to believe the men more than women.

I myself was a victim of this. While in college, I was messing with a guy name yo. Yo was cute, thuggish, and nonchalant and to my friends dismay, I actually fell for him. But I found out quickly that he wasn't about shit and he actually tried to use me (to do his homework, to have sex, to buy him things etc WHICH I NEVER DID thank GOD!) and when I realize this, I let his ass go with the quickness and started ignoring his ass like he was never born. Needless to say, he didn't like it. Almost immediately after I started ignoring him, whenever I walked by he called me and my friend bitches, stupid ho and etc. I learned later on that he told his friends that I wanted to 'have sex w/him" soo bad and that was not true!!! The most we did was kiss and feel... no kind of sex happened oral or anything!! (I havent done anything with NOBODY!) The culmination of his torment was when he went on a website and basically demeaned my name more by putting a "HOE" list and including me, and several other girls on there. I was furious, but I ignored it, and him......I guess he was expecting a reaction or for me to argue, fight or whatever but I ignored the foolishness and went on. Months later, he apologized and said what he did was immature, and he was sorry and he never had a problem w/me...I accepted but the damage was done. Even after he apologized, i chose to not associate w/him, not even much as a "hello" because I felt he didnt deserve it, if he would do it once he would certainly do it again..

So, I hope that men if you feel angry with a woman that you refrain from calling them a hoe, or a bitch. We are not all hoes/and or bitches and those words do hurt, and it can also ruin people's good names and cause other people to disrespect just because of some silly shit you said. I'm not a hoe. Never was or will be.

Thought for the Day

Why is that when you think you know a person then you find out that you really don't..and here and there you find out that it was all a lie but they were just telling fragments of the truth; at the beginnning of a relationship people pretend to be what they think u want....why cant they just be themselves..

They say Karma a Bitch

and I don't want that bitch to be me. I've had instances in my past where I knowingly screwed up a relationship with somebody who I thought was "too nice" and of course, karma came and reared its ugly head and gave me a piece of own medicine...

Why I say this?

because I'm currently talking to a guy who's hella sweet, nice, he's a perfect gentleman but..I don't know. We went out, and I didn't feel a spark. When he calls or texts, I don't feel like....'OMG ITS HIM' i could easily receive a call and text from him and won't think to text/call him back for hours. I know its the beginning stages of a friendship, dating whatever but I just aint feeling it.....but I don't wanna break it off soo soon...lol, one because Im just basing my feelings off first impressions, these first days. I hardly know him, we've been out once or twice I need to give it chance to develop and maybe I'll develop feelings and maybe I just need to built a friendship frist and worry about romantic later and second, because I dont want karma to bite me later on! I just know if I so call "do this guy wrong" that I'll end up talking to a guy I'm REALLY DIGGING and he'll dog the shit outta me. I really dont want that to happen. I've gotten so far in my young life that I haven't experience true heartbreak, and though I know eventually its gonna happen..I'm just not ready for it. I really dont want anything bad to happen to me because of what I've done, but I also dont wanna string anybody along.....but I'm gonna give it a shot though... um REALLY gonna try and be nice, and sweet.. but damn when I dont like somebody, lol I REALLY dont like them.. but we'lll see. What goes around comes around and I'll be damned if that happens to me..