only LAMES go up to guys right..

Is it acceptable for girls to go up to guys now?

I ask this because....iam in a bit of a dilemma. In my history 2020 class, there is a guy. He's REALLY cute and his name is, I shall call him, J. J is cute as hell, and I peeped that out first day of class. He was kind of eyeing me too I felt it, but he didn't approach me. Cool. Whatever

So, just last week I got a little bit cute I think and went to class. after class, i was walking towards the library when he appears next to me. Im getting excited because im thinking 'perfect opportunity' and that he will start a conversation say hey or somethin.
UM, it never happened. We walked a good 10 minutes besides each other, and he didnt say a word to me. He put on his earphones and walked.

I felt crushed.

So, my friends are telling me maybe I should start a conversation with him and get him to know me. Maybe start saying "Hello," or "HI," and that will let him know that I am interested.
But my thing is....if he is interested, or halfway interested or thinks im cute....won't he approach me? Men are SIMPLE, right. If they are interested they will come up to you and approach you. If they are NOT interested, they WONT come up to you. Fairly simple concept, so why am I analyzing it right?

My friend told me just because he thinks Im pretty doesnt mean he wanna talk to me. He has to get to know me a bit before he can make that call to become interested, so starting a conversation is key. But Im juss saying.....WHY I GOTTA MAKE THAT FIRST MOVE?

Im Afraid of Relationships...

I have never been in a long term relationship before.

Im 19 years old, and I never had a boyfriend more than 3 months.

and in some ways, that scares me.

My momma says that its normal for me not to have be in a relationship because I'm so young. I shouldn't be thinking about anything serious anyways, and just should concentrate on college and graduating....but of course she would say that.

but I think my problem is that I'm afraid of relationships...

and because I'm afraid, I have become extremely picky about who I choose to date.

and I think I choose guys that aren't gonna stay around long so I won't have to be in a real relationship.

When I start to talk to a guy, I look for little things that can turn me off and it is the wrong little things that turn me off. Like if he hasn't dated many girls himself or can't really hold a conversation or even if he never had a job. If something little irks me, I dump him.

and then I cling to the guys who used((are)) to be whores, talked to everybody and they mama, say they cant wait long for a girl to have sex, blah blah blah then I complain to my friends that he ain't shit and go through the whole cycle again.

I just think I'm afraid of what will happen if I do get in a real relationship. If I do get with a guy and fall deep, then I'm vulnerable, then if he hurts me I can become damaged goods, somebody with baggage. I'll feel awful and hurt and betrayed, and then I'll become bitter like so many other girls I know that have lost & lost and I don't want to go through that. So I keep it casual, and date guys who I know won't be around for long.

but I want that to change. I need to get over my fear and let somebody in because like they say, it's better to love and lost than to never loved & all, but hell I am scared that when I love and lose, I will never be able to love again...

BEING in a Relationship only for Sex...

You done heard the old quote before..
"Women fake an orgasm for the sake of a relationship; men fake a relationship for the sake of a orgasm"

in a lot of ways, that is true...

I posted the other day about these dude who is getting on my nerves to the nth degree and he's acting like soooo uninterested and distant, and I decided that I might drop him. Then I got to thinking why I was talking to him in the 1st place...

see im a VIRGIN....

and im a college girl. And to be quite honest, I'm tired of it. Being a virgin that is..
No it isn't pressuring me to have sex, or Im sooo in love that I want that person Im in in love with to be my first

Im just goddamn curious, and I just want to get the shit out of the way..
I know you shouldn't want to have sex because others are doing it, and in some ways thats part of the reason but Ijust want to experience it FOR MYSELF. i bet its great lol.....Im a curious girl I wil admit
But all the niggas I've met so far in life, have not at all been worthy of getting it whatsoever!!
They either niggas just talking to me for sex, lame ass hell, or I just didn't like them. I haven't been in many relationships, but I've talked to plenty of niggas and I've met em all && most guys ain't shit. lol
But anyways, I been talking to this guy and he seems alright enough. He's cute, and he's willing to be in a relationship. So I was thinking hey I'd go with him, and most likely do something with him. Basically, talking to him knowing that later down the road, I'd probably eff him. IT's badddd cause you're supposed to know somebody in/out before you have sex with him, and have feelings & blah, blah, blah and I probably would have feelings and all that jazz for him (if only he wasnt showing his ass right now!!) but the desire to have sex is hella strong!! I don't want to have sex with a guy I'm just talking to because it would seem like I waited allll this time for nothing. But, having sex with a guy Ima go with in college is worthless too huh? Hell, at least I'll be with him and won't have to worry about being labeled a hoe, going or etc. just because me and guy is effin..he'll be my boyfriend!! lol. i just need to get some this fall before i go crazy.. does that sound crazy?

Im SO over it..

Seriously, i HATE when a guy Im talking to make it seems like Im more interested in him than he is with me. Like, won't even text/call for a whole

day because their playing "PS3" or helping NUMEROUS people move all the time...hMM.. sounds fishy to me. Doesn't call, wants to text a line or

two each day and claims they are not a "phone" person but are more comfortable in person.... like dude, Im so over you. My interest is fleeting

and you just lost it.

i REALLY REALLY REALLY want a SEW IN weave lol

lol i really do.
i go back to school in a month and as seeing how my hair was last year, I didn't want to have to go through of my hair being done 1 month cause I made my way back home and going through some weeks of looking DISATROUS!!!! lol, i'd be going around my campus lookin like the BEAST, lol

so i been lookin on some websites for hairstyles and I think I have an understanding of what I want. I was a SEW IN WEAVE.

It looks like real hair, it gives me the length i sooo want and I don't have to worry about overheating my hair or worrying about my dandrudff and I can be a bad bitch and won't nobody(except the old people I met last year...but who cares bout them) know its weave!!!

but I do have concerns! i won't have my car until late December so how I'm gonna maintain my sew is a problem cause I want to have it done every 2 months-3 months hopefully 2 months but if Icant get back home I can stretch it to 3 months

and also taking care of the weave so it lasts like washing it, blow drying and styling if I couldn't do my REAL hair how can I maintain some WEAVE and I heard it also harder to mantain

and also, after taking it down the BREAKAGE i've heard about I've heard horror stories that women had to CHOP because they're hair was so MATTED and TANGLED. i would be so DEATHLY SICK if I had to cut my hair....but, with those worries I still want 1!

I went on this hairstylist in Maryland name RENIECE.COM to look for hairstyles and I Just wish I could fly there and get it done by her cause she can do some GOOD ASS HAIR , but iCant...but what you think looks the cutest???

pictures came from WWW.RENIECE.COM ; i do not claim these photos at ALL

Relationships in College....good or no?

People say that relationships in college don’t work. They say you’re young and why would you want to settle down with just one person while you can have fun and won’t have to be tied down to anybody. That can be true….to some extent but most of the time, in my opinion, the only person who truly benefits from “just having fun” are boys. Cause honestly, girls playing the field are in some way, shape or form going to be called out on it. Don’t you know that you can just talk to different people, not do anything with them at all and guys will see say you are fast and whatnot, just because you chose to “play the field?” And after you’ve “played the field” most boys can’t handle that you’ve haven’t just talked to a few people and is hesitant in the future to pursue something serious with you. It’s all so exhausting and stupid. I was talking to my bestie about being in a relationship in college because our freshman year I was single, and by the second semester she wasn’t but our first semester we were both single and just talking to random guys. Her just talking to guys presented some problems with her boyfriend, and after a while I figured that none of the boys on campus were worth my time. I told her about this guy I’m talking to who I kind of like, and he wants to be with me when we get on campus[I’m skeptical about that though..] and she tells me that, Girl you got so many options why you just want to settle down to one but I say, “

Why have so many options and talk to boys to only find out they
just want to fuck in the long run and they some bullshit options and miss an
opportunity with somebody who wants to be with me for me and lose them in the
process of having options?”

and she looked at me and said, “You’re right,”

Baby Boom 2009?

I was on my facebook page today and one of my male friends put on his status about how its like a baby boom and how girls 17-21 shouldn't really have one or more kids....its his exact words were "they need to be slapped with a cold fish str8 out of the cooler" lol. But I TOTALLY agree w/his sentiment like for real whats up with the teen pregnancy shit?! Is it like the new "IN" thing to do? I graduated from high school exactly a year ago, and no kidding since the beginning of my senior year until now I've known about 10-15 girls who have had children....im like WHOA !! To be honest, in this day & age nobody should get pregnant in my opinion.Its too many contraceptives and birth control (AND U CAN GET IT FOR FREE) for girls to be getting pregnant all willy-nilly! and the killing part about it some of these girls EXPECT their mother to help them with their children. I see these girls who I know got children clubbing and going out and I'm asking myself, "Wow I know these child has a baby why is she spending money on new outfits/getting into the club when she could spending it on her baby". LOL, I have no children and these girls go out MORE THAN I DO (but thats because Im mostly a homebody lol) but yeah. But I can't just rant about the girls too the guys need to be checked as well. Having unprotected sex-BIG NO NO!! I mean seriously, is putting on a condom that hard? It really isn't....and its crazy that with some guys they wont even tell you THEY HAVE CHILDREN..lol seriously! If you so happen to find out they got a child, and you ask they why didn't they mention to you before they will calmly say "well you never asked" lol WELL DAMN...I thought children were a blessing not a secret to be kept hidden away lol SMH! But this baby boom shit is getting RIDICULOUS! I know this one girl who JUST graduated from high school, I dont even think she's 17 yet and this girl has 2 babies....and the other day told me she just went on her 1st date.....WTF?!! 2 children but NEVER went on a DATE?! Wow......But of course, I know there are some females that are young but take care of their children & love them and still trying to work, go to school ETC I really commend them but I'm so over this new BABY BOOM cause it AINT CUTE for you to be in high school going to class and going home instead of doing HOMEWORK, you BREASTFEEDING lol. I know 1 thing....IT WONT BE ME!