Random Fucking Thoughts,,, Its All Over the Place; My Mind..

I am so bored with life right now. Like, there isn't shit to do in my world!! My job ended on July 31, so I am no longer working and I won't be getting a regular check(UUUGGGH) but I have about 1,000 saved up for the summer so I'm in pretty good shape. I just hate that for the next two weeks I won't be doing shit. Like, just keeping the house clean and laying around is basically it. I gotta curb my spending so I can't do the club alot so it makes for the end of my summer to be pretty damn boring. Fuck. I'm so ready to go back to school August 26th!! In two weeks, I will be gone of this boring town and back into another boring ass town, I admit but at least it'll be a boring town with live sets, cute boys, Vodka, and no rules WHATSOEVER!! Im so sick of my parents wanting to talk to me, or tell me something or make me do something it's gotten me oh so very blah blah blah.....like everything is going out of one ear and through the other. I am kinda missing one of my oldest friends right now, but I don't know how to form a line of communication with her. We were best friends in 4th grade but lost touch by 6th grade but got back in touch in 7th grade. My momma REALLY didn't like her and called her fast (because sometimes, she could be..) but she was my friend but my momma really went out of her way to sabotage it and prevented me from going out with her, wouldn't take me places if it involved her..... so basically by my senior year, we lost touch. We got back in touch on Facebook but we do not talk much. I comment on some of her pics and statuses but thats it. I do not even have her number. I get the feeling that she isn't really trying to maybe be friends or talk&& whatnot so thats why I haven't tried to get her number or force the issue but I see her like have pictures with another FB friend of mine and it kind of hurts my feelings because we used to be tight, her momma and brother knew me and my mother and she used to call me with problems & etc., like I felt like a friend who didn't judge her but I understand that she wants new friends and probably thinks old people would hold her back but it stills hurts me a lil even though my best friend is the isssh and I wouldn't trade that skinny bish for nothing in the world!! lol.

also, I cant fucking WAIT to get this refund check from school mane. It comes on August 31st and after I pay my rent for my apartment its SHOPPING time!! lol, I was looking online for cute laptops and I was thinking about getting a Dell Inspirion 15 and it's in pink my favorite color!! yay!! here it is: i love the color it's so pretty, feminine-like !

lol. later peoples !

Back then U didn't Want Me....

So, I'm on Facebook looking at people's pictures and reading comments and whatnot and sudden I get a message in the inbox. I look, and to my surprise its an old crush of mine from back in middle school talking about he wants my number. I'm suprised, and I end up giving him my number thinking how much I used to like him back in the day and wonder what his conversation game would be like... and I was SERIOUSLY DISAPPOINTED...
but that's not what I came here to talk about lol. It seems in the coming years since middle school and my early high school years, the guys I just absoutely ADORED back in those days and didn't give a rats ass about me because they were in the going hoe's faces are now sending me msgs and whatnot tryna to get to know me. At first I was like flattered && shit but now that I think about it...Im like the hell. Back then when I do admit I was awkard looking and reeked VIRGIN lol u didn't give me a second look but now that I've matured and become very cute u want to get to know me? It seems like every possible crush I have had has tried to get a second chance for me. It kinda boosts my ego at times I admit, but half the tims the niggas aint bout shit no way so I kindly thank them for their "compliments" and be on my way....if you wasn't interested then, what makes you so interested now that u start sweating me?? It can't be for nothing good, or that u just want to "TAKE ME OUT" or some.....u just want some!!! Lol in the words of Mike Jones, 'BACK THEN U DIDNT WANT ME NOW IM HOT U ALL ON ME" LMFAO