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Living my life as best I can. Just hoping I find some happiness and love along the way..
Ok. so, I talk to this guy name Q. Q is really sweet, nice and respectful. He's okay looking and he's very gentlemanly. But...I don't really like him. We've been out a few times and I don't feel anything more than friendship from him...but I keep thinking that I should keep him away.
He keeps telling me that he will pay for things!! he said he'll be there when I need him, and uHH....chick needs her hair done ASAP !!!! sERIOUSLy, I don't wanna use dude but damn if he putting it out there like that I really ain't trying to pass that up!! I'll still talk to him, but I'm really thinkin' bout letting him gone let him get me stuff. He really seems like he doesn't have a problem w/me. I'm not gonna ask him for anything and I haven't asked him he just keeps offering. I'm working two jobs&& he knows that and he offers...I think its so sweet of him, but would I be using him if I took what he offered????
Is it wrong?
Aw im so sensitive..
i lost 2 followers over the past 2 days!!
lol. mane what I do?!?! lol im just kidding but i am kind of disappointed..
thank u to all my followers!!! all 16 of u ya'll are kind to follow my hot mess of a blog...
Posted by P. White at 6/24/2009 06:11:00 PM
I HATE WORKING.
and its only going to get worse when I start my 2nd job...
Im gonna be working over 15 hours A DAAY
ugggggghhhhhhhh im too young for this!!
Posted by P. White at 6/22/2009 07:44:00 PM
I was watching my FAVORITE reality show "College Hill" and it was the episode where Brandon showed his two-facedness and bitchy ways when he ratted to Milan about the roommates talking about her(WHEN HE WAS THE ONE THAT WAS TALKING ABOUT HER), and where he basically insulted Kay and called her all kinds of derogratory names. Now, the question I want to pose is Why do men like to call women hoes/bitches and the etc. and they know its not true?
It seems like when men feel rejected by a woman the first instinct they get is to demean the woman and try to objectify her and call her the one thing that he knows women hate and fear the most being labeled: a hoe. And then they spread rumors about the woman and cause her reputation to be slandered.
Now, I realize that some women CAN/ARE hoes, and put themselves in positions to be recognized as such but what about women who aren't hoes but since the man feels like he has to lie or feels rejected by her, he feels like he has to slander her name to make himself feel better because as we know, people tend to believe the men more than women.
I myself was a victim of this. While in college, I was messing with a guy name yo. Yo was cute, thuggish, and nonchalant and to my friends dismay, I actually fell for him. But I found out quickly that he wasn't about shit and he actually tried to use me (to do his homework, to have sex, to buy him things etc WHICH I NEVER DID thank GOD!) and when I realize this, I let his ass go with the quickness and started ignoring his ass like he was never born. Needless to say, he didn't like it. Almost immediately after I started ignoring him, whenever I walked by he called me and my friend bitches, stupid ho and etc. I learned later on that he told his friends that I wanted to 'have sex w/him" soo bad and that was not true!!! The most we did was kiss and feel... no kind of sex happened oral or anything!! (I havent done anything with NOBODY!) The culmination of his torment was when he went on a website and basically demeaned my name more by putting a "HOE" list and including me, and several other girls on there. I was furious, but I ignored it, and him......I guess he was expecting a reaction or for me to argue, fight or whatever but I ignored the foolishness and went on. Months later, he apologized and said what he did was immature, and he was sorry and he never had a problem w/me...I accepted but the damage was done. Even after he apologized, i chose to not associate w/him, not even much as a "hello" because I felt he didnt deserve it, if he would do it once he would certainly do it again..
So, I hope that men if you feel angry with a woman that you refrain from calling them a hoe, or a bitch. We are not all hoes/and or bitches and those words do hurt, and it can also ruin people's good names and cause other people to disrespect just because of some silly shit you said. I'm not a hoe. Never was or will be.
Why is that when you think you know a person then you find out that you really don't..and here and there you find out that it was all a lie but they were just telling fragments of the truth; at the beginnning of a relationship people pretend to be what they think u want....why cant they just be themselves..
Right now I'm feeling like one of the dumbest chick in the world, but I'm bout to get real smart in a minute. LOL. Ok, there's this guy Imma call him "T", and T and me have history. We been talking about a year now, been knowing him a while. T is pretty impressive for someone so young he travels, goes to a prestigious college, and what seems like money at his disposable. I admit, when we first started talking I was not at all serious about him...my mind was on another guy and he was 2nd, maybe even 3rd on my mind. I went off to college, and we kept in touch and before I came home, he was just letting me know that he was serious about us talking, hanging out as much as we can etc. and all that jazz. Now I'm starting to like him, and look forward to us spending time. So what does he do??? You guessed it!! He starts acting distant!!! Its summer time so he's almost never home, but when he is it seems like he can just never find the time to spend time with poor old me. But when he's away, oh I'm "Baby" this, and he cannot wait to see me... he's home now only for 2 days and there's another glitch in the system and he probably wont see me. He wont text (but claim he would) or claim he doesnt get my call/text...so now, I'm basically calling a spade a spade. He doesn't want me. It's all good when I'm away and he can basically kick bullshit, but when I'm there and ready and willing there's not enough time. I cant wait forever, and I'm not...I know he aint willing to make a commitment anyway, so why should I waste my time?? There's another guy I'm talking to who lives probably 30 minutes away, and he is having NO PROBLEM wanting to see me, talk to me, ALWAYS suggest taking me out and even invited to me a concert. Hell, as I write this I dont understand WHY THE HELL IM TRIPPIN on other dude......
-"What he won't do...
so im basically gonna give him the AXE!! lol, cant wait to he starts texting me talking about "I dont mess with him anymore," like I'm ignoring him and messed him over!! Dont u just hate when they do that...
So, I've been single for like 2 years right? And let me tell u it's been HORRIBLE. Lol. Ok, maybe not horrible but very very unpleasant. Now I won't say that in that time frame I wasn't going out with guys or talking or spending time with any because I indeed was. But a relationship? Naah, nothing of that sort actually happened. This one guy I been dealing with off and on for damn near 2 years claimed I accepted when he asked to be his girlfriend, but I don't remember no shit like that so….I don't consider him to be my boyfriend. I just wonder why I been single soo damn long. Guys play games that's true but I mean it's gotta be something about me right? I think I'm a sweet, genuine, nice and funny person and most guys (I'm not trying to be arrogant or nothing) think I'm cute so what is it? It can't be that I'm a hoe lol or going or what? I'm so confused!! It just seem like guys just "try" me, or shall I say just try to get something from me and they won't succeed and therefore they give up. BUT I can't put the blame all on the guys. When I meet someone who is nice, decent, but I gotta say it: they're annoying as hell I write them off. My bestie tell me I was wrong and blah, blah, blah but is it so wrong to want a guy with swag? I mean seriously…..a guy can NOT be lame and still be a sweet, funny, attractive and loyal guy? I don't know….I haven't seen too much of "cute" decent guys I only seem to run into 2 categories of guys: (1) Cute, Funny, Swag on 1 million BUT he's either a whore, got a girlfriend (but will cheat), or using that old textbook line "I just got out of a relationship so I don't wanna be in a relationship ::rolling my eyes: or (2) He's Ok, Funny, lil confidence going but he's LAME texting me ALL the time asking the same questions OVER & OVER "what u doing" "whats up with u today" and telling me VERY early on that they like me. I like knowing a guy like me, but I'm sorry and maybe this is why I'm single and probably will stay single for a little while longer but in the beginning I kind of like the 'mystery' of not knowing if the guy is 100% into me I like that anxiety of "omg, does he like Me?" asking my girls "do u think he likes me" analyzing what he says, does, u know whatever all that good stuff. U telling me all these shit about how much u like me, how perfect I am to u just kills the spontaneity, the newness the anticipation and my interest for u DISAPPEARS. Ooh, I don't know I know I need to change my ways but it's been like since middle school and I keep going for the SAME type. U guess it category (1)…. SO, I guess it is ME. I need to change what kind of qualities I look for in a guy..its gone take some time but it'll come lol but until then….ALL MY SINGLE LADIES….LOL
Posted by P. White at 6/02/2009 06:34:00 PM
SUCK.wIsh me luckk ♥♥