Mostly everybody I know is a broke ass college student.
Not much money, eating Ramen Noodles, and buying used or rented books to save a little cash. So tell me why these party promoters throwing parties and shit like people got money on trees to shell out money for their little parties every week?
Our homecoming is this week, and that means party, party, party every day this week! I just don't have the mulah for that shit.. I just shelled out 35 for a concert @ my school that gotdamn canceled and the fuckers didn't refund our money! That was on some bullshit
Then TSU's homecoming is in 2 or 3 weeks, and I most definitely have to attend that. Plies, Yo Gotti, Young Dro and Yung Joc will be there and Nashville will be on LOCK DOWN..
all these goddamn money. I got a refund and I had money.. but with the spending money on myy new laptop, shopping, books and paying my rent I'm down to 400!! && i won't be getting the next refund til Jan.. so what is a girl to do?! I HaVe to BUDGET!! ahh, but how when there's so much shit to do. I personally think its unfair lol
I'll figure it out.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Mostly everybody I know is a broke ass college student.
Today, I've had a revelation
instead of me stressing about being the only single I know, and not being in love and not having a boyfriend and potentially being single for V-day..
today I said "I'm single. Accept it."
and I've come to terms with it. I've come to term with I might not find a dude who is patient about me being a virgin,
I've come to terms with not every guy I meet might not like me as much as I like him,
I've come to terms with the fact I might be single another month, 3 months, or even year...
and that is OK!!
I know you all will think "Damn she so young, why she worried about a boyfriend?" Well..when everybody one you know speaks of love so openly and freely and after a while, the same friends you use to hit every party with opts out instead to snuggle-wugggle with their booski it makes you
WANT YOUR OWN...
but I've come to terms with my single-ness.
My male friend told me to don't look and it will come to you and I said "So that means I have to give up on any possiblity that comes my way" and he told me some that gives me comfort... he said
"Just have faith he will come when he does and you are ready; not worrying is having faith."
I got faith, so i'm not worried about it anymore ♥
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
Ah, i have no luck with men ..
u think u connect with a dude and it might go somewhere
then,,, we've all been there
he goes on a disappearing act
I was talking to a guy and he was, ehhhhhhhh he alright looking and he seemed cool and we had a good conversation it constantly flowed for about 4 hours
he had strikes thooough
1)overly "cocky" and he wasn't all that cute...i mean, he kept saying "he's different," blah blah blah he dont think like the average dude like....i hate when guys sayy that instead of telling me that let me see it for myself u knww?
2) he says himself he's "superficial" and he wants a girl who is "really pretty". I think that is fine, but when you say that to a girl, in my opinion, u give her reasons to make her insecure. One of the things he t0old me he wanted in a girl that she had long hair. NOW when i met him, I had my weave in.. but when we chilled, I took it out and rockin my collarbone length hair.. && for soome reason I just felt he looked at me different
So im thinking things are gonna be ok, we'll hang out some more possibly get to know dude. Im not thinking much of it. Then, he doesnt text me. Ok, cool.. then another day goes by w/o texting. I text him and his answers are so dry & bland. A bunch of "oks," && "yeas" so, the final question I ask him is "SO have u been busy" and he answers "Yeah," and thats it. ..
now the reason for me asking this question is to have him explain why he hasnt hit me up.. and maybe, possibly we can hang. but none of that sort. he just said yeah.. bland, dry, to the point he doesnt rap. So, Im like "aight" and I delete his number. Its been 4 days no nothing from him...thus the "Disappearing Act"
I hate when guys do this "Disappearing Act" Everything is cool (so u think) then they decide (in their mind) they do not want you, yall didnt connect whatever and u never hear from him again. I just think its a cowardly men .. and for the guy to claim he was "such a man and mature" iJust think it was a bitch, and little boy move.. if u didnt want to rap, at least make an excuse as why we couldnt be together lie and say you're tooo busy to hang or somethin... whatever... ON TO THE NEXT!!! LOL
Monday, September 28, 2009
Is it acceptable for girls to go up to guys now?
I ask this because....iam in a bit of a dilemma. In my history 2020 class, there is a guy. He's REALLY cute and his name is, I shall call him, J. J is cute as hell, and I peeped that out first day of class. He was kind of eyeing me too I felt it, but he didn't approach me. Cool. Whatever
So, just last week I got a little bit cute I think and went to class. after class, i was walking towards the library when he appears next to me. Im getting excited because im thinking 'perfect opportunity' and that he will start a conversation say hey or somethin.
UM, it never happened. We walked a good 10 minutes besides each other, and he didnt say a word to me. He put on his earphones and walked.
I felt crushed.
So, my friends are telling me maybe I should start a conversation with him and get him to know me. Maybe start saying "Hello," or "HI," and that will let him know that I am interested.
But my thing is....if he is interested, or halfway interested or thinks im cute....won't he approach me? Men are SIMPLE, right. If they are interested they will come up to you and approach you. If they are NOT interested, they WONT come up to you. Fairly simple concept, so why am I analyzing it right?
My friend told me just because he thinks Im pretty doesnt mean he wanna talk to me. He has to get to know me a bit before he can make that call to become interested, so starting a conversation is key. But Im juss saying.....WHY I GOTTA MAKE THAT FIRST MOVE?
Me and my bestie have been friends since the 7th grade. We both haven't been in any serious relationships, and we were thick as thieves and stuck like glue our 1st and 2nd semester of college.
Then she got a boyfriend.
And now, it's so very very very different and no matter what she tells me, THAT SHIT IS DIFFERENT.
You see, I am still single, and with NO prospects in mind I like to go out.
but she, on the other hand does not like going out..she'd rather stay in her boyfriend
And thats fine and dandy....but she never wants to go out anymore. I'd ask her to go somewhere, and its like PULLING teeth to get her to go. I don't want to have to beg her to go anywhere with me. She is my bestie, she should go willing.. We live in an apt together and time spent is spent in each other rooms for whatever little time she isnt with her bf, and thats it.
I asked her recently about a party and she indicated she didn't want to go, though last week she was up for it. Im like WTF? Last year, any party there was we could get to she was geeked to go to. It just makes me frustrating.
I know she is happy in love, and wants to spend ALL her time with him but when did spending time with him sacrifice her wanting to spend time with me??
Im happy for my best friend, it is just that she is extremely frustrating me to the depths. Maybe I should just find another single friend and get it like that and leave her iwith her happy relationship. I dont know what anymore.
I just miss my old best friend. Before the boyfriend. But if shes happy..
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
and I just wonder....when did this come about??
I have two brothers one older and one younger. My older brother is....ugh, sometimes disgusting to say the least. He calls every girl he encounters "Hoes" or "Bitches" and basically bring women
to a level of just having sex with them. And it's a lot of other guys like that as well. When did this become a trend? When did disrespecting women and slogans like, "Money over bitches," and '
"Trust no Hoe," become popular?? Whose fault is it? Back in the 40s, 50s, & 60s men wouldn't DARE call a women a hoe or a bitch. Men were respectful, opened doors, take women out on dates really court a woman. Now, niggas will text you "Whats up wit the pussy" and expect to have sex even if he just took you to damn Taco Bell !!! Is it women's fault? Is it because we became too lax, and let men in who wasn't worthy; is it because of they way women dress now a days very procatively; I don't understand......they say its because of single parenthood, but if men are being raised by single mothers wouldn't that teach them to respect a woman because they are hardworking and will sacrifice for the family??
These are the things that are on my Mind..
lol.. I wish her well on her pregnancy but I dont understand...if her and Scott broke up, why in the hell were they effing? So, were they fuck buddies or did they ever really break up? Probably didn't...
I see this commerical at least 10x a day, and it bugs the ish out of me!!! They think women
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Girls walking in heels---
like, seriously? I know you want to be cute & all but our college campus is HUUUUGE, and parking is horrible so basically you have to walk everywhere and when I see girls in heels it just give me a headache like, ugggh I hope you fall so I can laugh VERY VERY loud in your face.. '
People stopping/slowing down in the middle of traffic--
You know when you tryna walk to your class and there's a whole crowd walking forward/back and you tryna get where you're going and all of a sudden, the person in front starts slowing down and you try to manuever your way from behind them but there's so many people that you can't. Yeah. Thanks asshole now i'm late for class! '
Riding a bike in the middle of traffic-
I see this all the time on my campus....they will ride their bike on the sidewalk where a bunch of people are tryna to walk. And some don't even watch where they're going! You'll be walking and all of a sudden you see a bike and shit whiz by and you get all scared & isssh just because they didn't let YOU know they were comin. ugh, you know you can walk right?
A whole bunch of guys laughing/talking--
I hate to see a whole bunch of guys together because thats just means one of them is gonna try && talk to me, and be worsome ass hell. They're little dumb ass friends gonna say some stupid sexual shit && gon ask me can they be my friend knowing damn well they don't wanna be my friend.siiigh.
Guys with skinny jeans on and yet, they still sagging---
This has been a trend since Im guessing last fall. But why?! So, you want to have tight jeans but still be "hood" and sag? In the words of B. Scott, "Bitch. Boo. Bye!!"
The white girls with uggs on and it's 90 degrees outside--
But she'll have on a mini-skirt and Aeropostale shirt.. and her hair will be in a messy bun.. smh
That really old guy who you thinks goes to your school but not sure but he keeps starin----
I know I'm not the only one, right?
Monday, August 10, 2009
Sunday, August 9, 2009
So, I'm on Facebook looking at people's pictures and reading comments and whatnot and sudden I get a message in the inbox. I look, and to my surprise its an old crush of mine from back in middle school talking about he wants my number. I'm suprised, and I end up giving him my number thinking how much I used to like him back in the day and wonder what his conversation game would be like... and I was SERIOUSLY DISAPPOINTED...
but that's not what I came here to talk about lol. It seems in the coming years since middle school and my early high school years, the guys I just absoutely ADORED back in those days and didn't give a rats ass about me because they were in the going hoe's faces are now sending me msgs and whatnot tryna to get to know me. At first I was like flattered && shit but now that I think about it...Im like the hell. Back then when I do admit I was awkard looking and reeked VIRGIN lol u didn't give me a second look but now that I've matured and become very cute u want to get to know me? It seems like every possible crush I have had has tried to get a second chance for me. It kinda boosts my ego at times I admit, but half the tims the niggas aint bout shit no way so I kindly thank them for their "compliments" and be on my way....if you wasn't interested then, what makes you so interested now that u start sweating me?? It can't be for nothing good, or that u just want to "TAKE ME OUT" or some.....u just want some!!! Lol in the words of Mike Jones, 'BACK THEN U DIDNT WANT ME NOW IM HOT U ALL ON ME" LMFAO
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
I was watching Secret Lives of Women on Oxygen....ya'll need to go watch it its actually verrry good and the topic was female sex addicts. Basically, it was like two women who were current "sex" addicts...and two former sex addicts and they talked about they're past, what they are doing now and how they overcame their sex addiction....
so.. of all the girls I known that were so called "going" and hoes...maybe they had a reason? Something inside that we don't knw about and we're judging them without knowing the whole story?
Let me share somethin with ya. At my college, of course there was sex and etc hooking up as it is called but there was this one girl imma call her Keira. Keira was the HOE of the school. Her speciality was oral. She practically give bj's to every dude in one click, and a whole host of others. They even began calling her a "Man Eater" to her face, and to my surprise....she actually accepted it! It was a well known fact that she was easy, and basically if you called her to your room she would give you head. She even admitted liking to do it, and not caring.
Now...when I heard 'bout this I IMMEDIATELY judged. I gave her 0% respect, and laughed when I heard what the dudes did to her, said bout her etc.. but then one day I started thinking like, 'DAMN!!' it gotta be a reason why this girl is degrading herself like this. She must of had some issues back at home with her family or father, or maybe some deep rooted self-esteem issues that is making her lash out like this. She simply isn't doing this because she loves it because she is getting disrespected, and she even cried when a boy put her business out on front street. Then I started looking at her in a different light. I felt sorry for her. When I heard of her escapades, I didn't think "That hoe...." I thought, "Damn she need some help,"
But of course, people are only gonna respect you if you show some respect for themselves. If a girl is putting herself out there like that, people aren't gonna treat her like she is somebody worth being treated. But still, when a girl is being a Whore.... you sometimes gotta think about damn Maybe This girl is going through something instead of immediately talking about her and calling her a hoe....when u look at the whole picture like that, it makes gossiping about her seem Wrong.
but who knows. Im just ranting.
Monday, August 3, 2009
You done heard the old quote before..
"Women fake an orgasm for the sake of a relationship; men fake a relationship for the sake of a orgasm"
in a lot of ways, that is true...
I posted the other day about these dude who is getting on my nerves to the nth degree and he's acting like soooo uninterested and distant, and I decided that I might drop him. Then I got to thinking why I was talking to him in the 1st place...
see im a VIRGIN....
and im a college girl. And to be quite honest, I'm tired of it. Being a virgin that is..
No it isn't pressuring me to have sex, or Im sooo in love that I want that person Im in in love with to be my first
Im just goddamn curious, and I just want to get the shit out of the way..
I know you shouldn't want to have sex because others are doing it, and in some ways thats part of the reason but Ijust want to experience it FOR MYSELF. i bet its great lol.....Im a curious girl I wil admit
But all the niggas I've met so far in life, have not at all been worthy of getting it whatsoever!!
They either niggas just talking to me for sex, lame ass hell, or I just didn't like them. I haven't been in many relationships, but I've talked to plenty of niggas and I've met em all && most guys ain't shit. lol
But anyways, I been talking to this guy and he seems alright enough. He's cute, and he's willing to be in a relationship. So I was thinking hey I'd go with him, and most likely do something with him. Basically, talking to him knowing that later down the road, I'd probably eff him. IT's badddd cause you're supposed to know somebody in/out before you have sex with him, and have feelings & blah, blah, blah and I probably would have feelings and all that jazz for him (if only he wasnt showing his ass right now!!) but the desire to have sex is hella strong!! I don't want to have sex with a guy I'm just talking to because it would seem like I waited allll this time for nothing. But, having sex with a guy Ima go with in college is worthless too huh? Hell, at least I'll be with him and won't have to worry about being labeled a hoe, going or etc. just because me and guy is effin..he'll be my boyfriend!! lol. i just need to get some this fall before i go crazy.. does that sound crazy?
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
i go back to school in a month and as seeing how my hair was last year, I didn't want to have to go through of my hair being done 1 month cause I made my way back home and going through some weeks of looking DISATROUS!!!! lol, i'd be going around my campus lookin like the BEAST, lol
pictures came from WWW.RENIECE.COM ; i do not claim these photos at ALL
i LOVE my niece I REALLY do....
she can be sweet when she wants
but lately she been getting on my NERVES!!
she has thrown my PHONE and my DIGITAL CAMERA into the toilet.
Friday, July 17, 2009
People say that relationships in college don’t work. They say you’re young and why would you want to settle down with just one person while you can have fun and won’t have to be tied down to anybody. That can be true….to some extent but most of the time, in my opinion, the only person who truly benefits from “just having fun” are boys. Cause honestly, girls playing the field are in some way, shape or form going to be called out on it. Don’t you know that you can just talk to different people, not do anything with them at all and guys will see say you are fast and whatnot, just because you chose to “play the field?” And after you’ve “played the field” most boys can’t handle that you’ve haven’t just talked to a few people and is hesitant in the future to pursue something serious with you. It’s all so exhausting and stupid. I was talking to my bestie about being in a relationship in college because our freshman year I was single, and by the second semester she wasn’t but our first semester we were both single and just talking to random guys. Her just talking to guys presented some problems with her boyfriend, and after a while I figured that none of the boys on campus were worth my time. I told her about this guy I’m talking to who I kind of like, and he wants to be with me when we get on campus[I’m skeptical about that though..] and she tells me that, Girl you got so many options why you just want to settle down to one but I say, “
Why have so many options and talk to boys to only find out they
just want to fuck in the long run and they some bullshit options and miss an
opportunity with somebody who wants to be with me for me and lose them in the
process of having options?”
and she looked at me and said, “You’re right,”
Friday, July 10, 2009
ommg people sorry I havent been posting I have actually been workin (only part time now) and just waiting to go back to school. I have NEVER been so ready to go back to school. My hometown of Memphis is actually quite borin, and Im jus ready for the college life, the college boys, the college parties & games lol you know just be FREEEEEEEE LOL but ANYWHO, Im tryna save up money for my apartment I decided to forgo being in a crowded dorm and risk rooming with someone I didn't know OR like, so.... I have to have $324 by August 1th. Now, that's the only time I have to come up with the money myself I have it set up where the money I'm getting by finacial aid it will act as my housing... my apartment for a year is about the same (or a little less) as my housing did in my freshman year so I thought why not be in a apartment instead of a dorm where I have to share the bathroom, be in a little ass space and have to have my space "CHECKED" everytime a holiday came around....now my daddy is being SOOO AGAINST IT. he is LIKE INTENT that's its going to fail!! everytime we talk about we get into a big ass disagreement.he just's listing all the things that's going to go wrong and I'm like, I thought of everything!! I know how I'm going to pay, I know all the roommates I'm rooming with, I will be able to get to the campus cause they have a shuttle(and I will get my car in Dec) so why is he trippin? he thinks I'm jus being young nd thinking I know it all but I think I'm being reasonable and just wants him to know that this CAN go smoothly just because it's a decision I made without him! I guess he seem to think I'm making a huge mistake, but I disagree but hey , he thinks he knows everything cause he lived longer than me. isnt that a stupid reason to say u know more about something? LOL....whatever everytime he starts saying in my head im jus like IM GROWN NOW SO WHATEVER U SAYING ITS LIKE BOOOOOPPPPP lol...Im crazy!!!
post ur thoughts. ♥
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Posted by P. White at 7/10/2009 08:26:00 PM
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Ok. so, I talk to this guy name Q. Q is really sweet, nice and respectful. He's okay looking and he's very gentlemanly. But...I don't really like him. We've been out a few times and I don't feel anything more than friendship from him...but I keep thinking that I should keep him away.
He keeps telling me that he will pay for things!! he said he'll be there when I need him, and uHH....chick needs her hair done ASAP !!!! sERIOUSLy, I don't wanna use dude but damn if he putting it out there like that I really ain't trying to pass that up!! I'll still talk to him, but I'm really thinkin' bout letting him gone let him get me stuff. He really seems like he doesn't have a problem w/me. I'm not gonna ask him for anything and I haven't asked him he just keeps offering. I'm working two jobs&& he knows that and he offers...I think its so sweet of him, but would I be using him if I took what he offered????
Is it wrong?
Aw im so sensitive..
i lost 2 followers over the past 2 days!!
lol. mane what I do?!?! lol im just kidding but i am kind of disappointed..
thank u to all my followers!!! all 16 of u ya'll are kind to follow my hot mess of a blog...
Posted by P. White at 6/24/2009 06:11:00 PM
Monday, June 22, 2009
I HATE WORKING.
and its only going to get worse when I start my 2nd job...
Im gonna be working over 15 hours A DAAY
ugggggghhhhhhhh im too young for this!!
Posted by P. White at 6/22/2009 07:44:00 PM
Sunday, June 21, 2009
I was watching my FAVORITE reality show "College Hill" and it was the episode where Brandon showed his two-facedness and bitchy ways when he ratted to Milan about the roommates talking about her(WHEN HE WAS THE ONE THAT WAS TALKING ABOUT HER), and where he basically insulted Kay and called her all kinds of derogratory names. Now, the question I want to pose is Why do men like to call women hoes/bitches and the etc. and they know its not true?
It seems like when men feel rejected by a woman the first instinct they get is to demean the woman and try to objectify her and call her the one thing that he knows women hate and fear the most being labeled: a hoe. And then they spread rumors about the woman and cause her reputation to be slandered.
Now, I realize that some women CAN/ARE hoes, and put themselves in positions to be recognized as such but what about women who aren't hoes but since the man feels like he has to lie or feels rejected by her, he feels like he has to slander her name to make himself feel better because as we know, people tend to believe the men more than women.
I myself was a victim of this. While in college, I was messing with a guy name yo. Yo was cute, thuggish, and nonchalant and to my friends dismay, I actually fell for him. But I found out quickly that he wasn't about shit and he actually tried to use me (to do his homework, to have sex, to buy him things etc WHICH I NEVER DID thank GOD!) and when I realize this, I let his ass go with the quickness and started ignoring his ass like he was never born. Needless to say, he didn't like it. Almost immediately after I started ignoring him, whenever I walked by he called me and my friend bitches, stupid ho and etc. I learned later on that he told his friends that I wanted to 'have sex w/him" soo bad and that was not true!!! The most we did was kiss and feel... no kind of sex happened oral or anything!! (I havent done anything with NOBODY!) The culmination of his torment was when he went on a website and basically demeaned my name more by putting a "HOE" list and including me, and several other girls on there. I was furious, but I ignored it, and him......I guess he was expecting a reaction or for me to argue, fight or whatever but I ignored the foolishness and went on. Months later, he apologized and said what he did was immature, and he was sorry and he never had a problem w/me...I accepted but the damage was done. Even after he apologized, i chose to not associate w/him, not even much as a "hello" because I felt he didnt deserve it, if he would do it once he would certainly do it again..
So, I hope that men if you feel angry with a woman that you refrain from calling them a hoe, or a bitch. We are not all hoes/and or bitches and those words do hurt, and it can also ruin people's good names and cause other people to disrespect just because of some silly shit you said. I'm not a hoe. Never was or will be.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Why is that when you think you know a person then you find out that you really don't..and here and there you find out that it was all a lie but they were just telling fragments of the truth; at the beginnning of a relationship people pretend to be what they think u want....why cant they just be themselves..
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Why I say this?
because I'm currently talking to a guy who's hella sweet, nice, he's a perfect gentleman but..I don't know. We went out, and I didn't feel a spark. When he calls or texts, I don't feel like....'OMG ITS HIM' i could easily receive a call and text from him and won't think to text/call him back for hours. I know its the beginning stages of a friendship, dating whatever but I just aint feeling it.....but I don't wanna break it off soo soon...lol, one because Im just basing my feelings off first impressions, these first days. I hardly know him, we've been out once or twice I need to give it chance to develop and maybe I'll develop feelings and maybe I just need to built a friendship frist and worry about romantic later and second, because I dont want karma to bite me later on! I just know if I so call "do this guy wrong" that I'll end up talking to a guy I'm REALLY DIGGING and he'll dog the shit outta me. I really dont want that to happen. I've gotten so far in my young life that I haven't experience true heartbreak, and though I know eventually its gonna happen..I'm just not ready for it. I really dont want anything bad to happen to me because of what I've done, but I also dont wanna string anybody along.....but I'm gonna give it a shot though... um REALLY gonna try and be nice, and sweet.. but damn when I dont like somebody, lol I REALLY dont like them.. but we'lll see. What goes around comes around and I'll be damned if that happens to me..
Friday, June 12, 2009
Right now I'm feeling like one of the dumbest chick in the world, but I'm bout to get real smart in a minute. LOL. Ok, there's this guy Imma call him "T", and T and me have history. We been talking about a year now, been knowing him a while. T is pretty impressive for someone so young he travels, goes to a prestigious college, and what seems like money at his disposable. I admit, when we first started talking I was not at all serious about him...my mind was on another guy and he was 2nd, maybe even 3rd on my mind. I went off to college, and we kept in touch and before I came home, he was just letting me know that he was serious about us talking, hanging out as much as we can etc. and all that jazz. Now I'm starting to like him, and look forward to us spending time. So what does he do??? You guessed it!! He starts acting distant!!! Its summer time so he's almost never home, but when he is it seems like he can just never find the time to spend time with poor old me. But when he's away, oh I'm "Baby" this, and he cannot wait to see me... he's home now only for 2 days and there's another glitch in the system and he probably wont see me. He wont text (but claim he would) or claim he doesnt get my call/text...so now, I'm basically calling a spade a spade. He doesn't want me. It's all good when I'm away and he can basically kick bullshit, but when I'm there and ready and willing there's not enough time. I cant wait forever, and I'm not...I know he aint willing to make a commitment anyway, so why should I waste my time?? There's another guy I'm talking to who lives probably 30 minutes away, and he is having NO PROBLEM wanting to see me, talk to me, ALWAYS suggest taking me out and even invited to me a concert. Hell, as I write this I dont understand WHY THE HELL IM TRIPPIN on other dude......
-"What he won't do...
so im basically gonna give him the AXE!! lol, cant wait to he starts texting me talking about "I dont mess with him anymore," like I'm ignoring him and messed him over!! Dont u just hate when they do that...
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
So, I've been single for like 2 years right? And let me tell u it's been HORRIBLE. Lol. Ok, maybe not horrible but very very unpleasant. Now I won't say that in that time frame I wasn't going out with guys or talking or spending time with any because I indeed was. But a relationship? Naah, nothing of that sort actually happened. This one guy I been dealing with off and on for damn near 2 years claimed I accepted when he asked to be his girlfriend, but I don't remember no shit like that so….I don't consider him to be my boyfriend. I just wonder why I been single soo damn long. Guys play games that's true but I mean it's gotta be something about me right? I think I'm a sweet, genuine, nice and funny person and most guys (I'm not trying to be arrogant or nothing) think I'm cute so what is it? It can't be that I'm a hoe lol or going or what? I'm so confused!! It just seem like guys just "try" me, or shall I say just try to get something from me and they won't succeed and therefore they give up. BUT I can't put the blame all on the guys. When I meet someone who is nice, decent, but I gotta say it: they're annoying as hell I write them off. My bestie tell me I was wrong and blah, blah, blah but is it so wrong to want a guy with swag? I mean seriously…..a guy can NOT be lame and still be a sweet, funny, attractive and loyal guy? I don't know….I haven't seen too much of "cute" decent guys I only seem to run into 2 categories of guys: (1) Cute, Funny, Swag on 1 million BUT he's either a whore, got a girlfriend (but will cheat), or using that old textbook line "I just got out of a relationship so I don't wanna be in a relationship ::rolling my eyes: or (2) He's Ok, Funny, lil confidence going but he's LAME texting me ALL the time asking the same questions OVER & OVER "what u doing" "whats up with u today" and telling me VERY early on that they like me. I like knowing a guy like me, but I'm sorry and maybe this is why I'm single and probably will stay single for a little while longer but in the beginning I kind of like the 'mystery' of not knowing if the guy is 100% into me I like that anxiety of "omg, does he like Me?" asking my girls "do u think he likes me" analyzing what he says, does, u know whatever all that good stuff. U telling me all these shit about how much u like me, how perfect I am to u just kills the spontaneity, the newness the anticipation and my interest for u DISAPPEARS. Ooh, I don't know I know I need to change my ways but it's been like since middle school and I keep going for the SAME type. U guess it category (1)…. SO, I guess it is ME. I need to change what kind of qualities I look for in a guy..its gone take some time but it'll come lol but until then….ALL MY SINGLE LADIES….LOL
Posted by P. White at 6/02/2009 06:34:00 PM
SUCK.wIsh me luckk ♥♥