Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Is It Me Or….

So, I've been single for like 2 years right? And let me tell u it's been HORRIBLE. Lol. Ok, maybe not horrible but very very unpleasant. Now I won't say that in that time frame I wasn't going out with guys or talking or spending time with any because I indeed was. But a relationship? Naah, nothing of that sort actually happened. This one guy I been dealing with off and on for damn near 2 years claimed I accepted when he asked to be his girlfriend, but I don't remember no shit like that so….I don't consider him to be my boyfriend. I just wonder why I been single soo damn long. Guys play games that's true but I mean it's gotta be something about me right? I think I'm a sweet, genuine, nice and funny person and most guys (I'm not trying to be arrogant or nothing) think I'm cute so what is it? It can't be that I'm a hoe lol or going or what? I'm so confused!! It just seem like guys just "try" me, or shall I say just try to get something from me and they won't succeed and therefore they give up. BUT I can't put the blame all on the guys. When I meet someone who is nice, decent, but I gotta say it: they're annoying as hell I write them off. My bestie tell me I was wrong and blah, blah, blah but is it so wrong to want a guy with swag? I mean seriously…..a guy can NOT be lame and still be a sweet, funny, attractive and loyal guy? I don't know….I haven't seen too much of "cute" decent guys I only seem to run into 2 categories of guys: (1) Cute, Funny, Swag on 1 million BUT he's either a whore, got a girlfriend (but will cheat), or using that old textbook line "I just got out of a relationship so I don't wanna be in a relationship ::rolling my eyes: or (2) He's Ok, Funny, lil confidence going but he's LAME texting me ALL the time asking the same questions OVER & OVER "what u doing" "whats up with u today" and telling me VERY early on that they like me. I like knowing a guy like me, but I'm sorry and maybe this is why I'm single and probably will stay single for a little while longer but in the beginning I kind of like the 'mystery' of not knowing if the guy is 100% into me I like that anxiety of "omg, does he like Me?" asking my girls "do u think he likes me" analyzing what he says, does, u know whatever all that good stuff. U telling me all these shit about how much u like me, how perfect I am to u just kills the spontaneity, the newness the anticipation and my interest for u DISAPPEARS. Ooh, I don't know I know I need to change my ways but it's been like since middle school and I keep going for the SAME type. U guess it category (1)…. SO, I guess it is ME. I need to change what kind of qualities I look for in a guy..its gone take some time but it'll come lol but until then….ALL MY SINGLE LADIES….LOL

4 comments:

2BITCHEZDEEP said...

I've been single for umm, 3 years lol....oh dear :(

♥Porscha said...

We've both been in a drought lol

Melanie Denise! said...

I like ur blog! and i understand what ur saying about the boys being lame lol. Based on my own current experience, boys are stupid and u dont want a relationship anyway because it'll be nothing but stress!! Lol but i really do hope you find someone who is right 4 u! <3

Q said...

I feel you on the guys texting you asking the same questions. That's sooo true lol. I would try to offer some advice, but I too have been single for a minute so all I can say is GOOD LUCK.